EeriePlume

I don't know why I'm making this, because the chances of me keeping them are slim to non-existent, but I should at least try, right?

So here's some shit I need to do in 2016:

~ Learn to drive
~ Learn to cook more than just stir fry
~ Eat less chocolate and pizza (this will likely fail but eeehhh)
~ Continue to develop strategies for my mental health
~ Finish my education
~ Get a full time job once above is done

That will do. Nice list to get me started.

I'm scared. I know I need the truth, but I am not sure if I am ready to handle it. I fear what their words will bring. I have so many questions that simply have no answer. I want change, yet at the same time I also don't want it. Will change spell the end? Will I ever feel it again? 

Well, I haven't been on DeviantArt in quite a while it seems. And seeing as my brain doesn't fancy switching off, thought I'd write a little update on here. I highly doubt anyone really cares enough to read it but oh well. If nothing else, I've killed some time while my sleeping meds kick in.

Firstly, I know I haven't uploaded any new photography, writing..  well, I haven't actually uploaded anything for months now. I apologise for this, I've just been so busy with things and finding the time for creativity has been more like finding a needle in a hay stack of late I do hope though that things start to settle down now and that I can do more of the things I love. So yeah, watch this space!

In terms of my personal life, it's been same old I guess. Brain is sometimes screwed, yet beautiful, well demonstrated by this week's events where despite crippling insomnia I managed to pull my shit together and get myself a new job. Still don't really have a clue what I want to do with my life, but that's okay. I've actually decided it is best to keep my mind and heart open to new avenues and explore every opportunity that presents itself.

Random question time! I know I'm a fair few years late, but today I bought a PS 3 Been in one of those moods and thought "why not?". Basically I need game recommendations. Got Dragon Age and Dynasty Warriors and I own the HD remaster of FF X on PS Vita so won't be getting it on PS3.

Anyway, I'm bored of this journal writing business now. Just wanted to say hi! Or maybe just kill time because I'm clearly a little hyper right now xD Thanks for reading!

Silly, silly brain. Least you've decided to come out of your rubbish shitty feeling phase and enter the light, even if you do feel like a sports car going over 100mph. I realise that probably didn't make a lot of sense but hey, that's life. I have uni tomorrow as well and I'm not sleeping.  Lolololol. I might try after this and hope for the best. Nobody reads this I'm sure, so I can chat shit and it's fine. But yeah, last week I wanted to kill myself and now I feel on top of the world. Just wish my brain would choose a mode and stick with it. The inconsistency is kinda annoying. Ohhhhh well. 8)

Today is the last day of 2014.

What will tomorrow bring? Well, probably not a lot but who can say where I'll be in a years time.

This year's been interesting to say the least. Nothing much really happened at the start of the year except being super busy with my dissertation and not really having a social life. The interesting stuff began in summer when I graduated then had the hard task of saying goodbye. My university friends made what could have been some of the worst years of my life into something that wasn't so bad after all. University was hard for me for a number of reasons, some personal and some quite general that everyone probably complains about. My mental health was difficult, as always, but the further I go down the road the greater the obstacle. The monster that always grows, but I digress. There are multiple times I can think of when at least one of the amazing people I met in Birmingham came to save the day. The friends I made here I don't think I'll ever forget.

Then I had to move. Seeing as I'd been accepted onto a masters course, I thought I'd better move to the city its in. So there I went and I barely knew anyone. Luckily, I've struck second time lucky and the people I'm sharing with are pretty awesome. Don't know too many other people because I really haven't had that much time. Annoyingly though, I kept have stomach problems so had to resign from my job and so in 2015, the first thing I will be doing is finding find another. Guess it will be nice to have time to study without having to juggle it with work.


I can't be bothered to think of resolutions for this upcoming year, because I know I probably won't stick to them. All I'm really going to aim for is to try to be a little more optimistic and maybe eat less tummy angering foods (Yes, this does mean less pizza ).